May 2012
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Do any of you guys have a Baby K'tan?
I saw one in the store the other day and I REALLY REALLY want one. It’s just like the Moby wrap we have which I LOVE but it’s a little easier to work with and you can wear it in like a million different ways! Anybody have any thoughts on it?
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Happy 11 month birthday to the sweetest little girl in the whole entire world!!! I cannot believe she will be 1 fucking years old in 1 month. How the hell??? I don’t want Sunny to grow up ever.
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9 MORE DAYS 9 MORE DAYS 9 MORE DAYS!!!
SUNNY IS HOME IN 9 MORE DAYS!!! Our case worker FINALLY gave us a date and got the last meeting arranged for May 31st and then right after the meeting Sunny comes home. It’s about fucking time. FUCK FUCK FUCK YES!!! This next week is going to be the most anticipated, longest week of my life but I could not be any happier!!! =]=]=]
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Anonymous asked: What have you learned from your experience with DHS? I used to work in social services and I was always interested in what, if any, tools people took from their experience with us. Believe it or not, DHS workers are trying to help and offer support and advice for parenting!
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Sunny had a doctors visit today and they said she has torticollis. Basically it’s just one of her neck muscles aren’t strong enough and her head tilts to one side. It’s nothing terrible and it’s WAYYY better than it was at birth but we have to keep working with her head and doing exercises to tilt her head the way that she doesn’t want it to go. We noticed that her...
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FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY
I can’t wait until Friday!!! The return home committee meeting thing is Friday!!! Then we have a family decision meeting next week and then Sunny is home. YOU GUYS GET EXCITED !!! Shortest DHS case Oregon has ever seen say WHAT!!!
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Happy Mothers Day!
We’re having a picnic and playing outside today and I really wish that I had a camera to document my first mothers day. Oh well, I’m just excited I get to see my little girl!
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The hospital I am closest to (which is 30miles away) won’t do VBACs what so ever because they are such a small hospital and don’t have the staff on site at all times that would be needed if something went wrong. So they are wanting to like schedule me a C-section before I even go into labor and shit. Well this isn’t going to work for me especially considering that I want like...
I don’t post much on here anymore because I just plain don’t feel like it really. Everything is going better though and working out in our favor.
April 2012
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Oh so I fell off the porch the other day and I think I tore a ligament in my foot because I can barely put any pressure on it. So if you see a hobbling pregnant lady on crutches that’s probably me.
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Happy 10 month birthday little girl.
Anonymous asked: Why do you have to visit sunny? I am confused? Does she not live with you?
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I MAY have found a camera cord that hooks up to my camera and if I did then you lovelies will FINALLY get to see how amazingly adorable little girl has been the past little while. Plus seeing the photos on only a camera screen is KILLING ME!!! And my blog looks PRETTY fucking boring without photos of Sunny on it, I will say.
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Guess who gets unsupervised visits and can now breastfeed Sunny? Yeah that’s me. Unsupervised visits means that we don’t have to have a worker watching us so that means we can come in and have LONGER visits with her and MORE visits with her because they won’t have to pay someone to watch us. We met our new case worker the other week as well and she seems alright. We have...
Anonymous asked: I am confused as to why you had to trade your laptop to get your belongings out of the car. Could you explain this? Perhaps I am just too naive.
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I’m pretty sure we actually have the baby name that we are going to stick with if little bean is a girl. We change our minds every five minutes but this one I think will actually stick. Have no idea about a boys name though…Anyways if you message me I’ll tell you! =]
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Because if I don't do something to keep my brain...
Full name: Kayla Brooke M. Gender: Girl. Age: 22. Birth date: November 28, 1989 Place of birth: Atlanta, Georgia. Current place of residence: Klamath Falls, Oregon. Heritage: Czech-slovakian, Polish, a little Cherokee and Irish too. Siblings: 3 little sisters, Karlee - 20, Kelsey - 17, Kendel - 13. Religious/Spiritual Affiliation: Whatever. Pets: 2 dogs, Bailey - German Shepard/Doberman,...
Only 1 little bean in my belly! He/she looks SUPER cute already and we didn’t find out the sex but I’m still guessing beans a girl. We get to give Sunny her late Easter basket tomorrow when we see her because my mom sent it and it just arrived yesterday. We also get our new case worker tomorrow too which I think will be WAYYY better because our case worker has started to turn into a...
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Did I mention that Sunny’s top tooth broke through? =]
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Do you guys think it’s weird that Sunny doesn’t really crawl or anything at 9 months old? She can like army crawl but doesn’t pull up on her hands and knees and go. Also she can pull herself up holding our fingers and stuff and can stand on her own if she is holding on to something but not all by herself. She also can’t really maneuver from like laying to a sitting...
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I have this feeling that at the ultrasound tomorrow that we are going to be seeing 2 heart beats. I could be wrong but it’s just a feeling I have had from day 1. Guess we’ll see. Still not going to find out the sex though because surprises are way cooler even though I’m PRETTY sure I already know and PRETTY sure that little bean is a girl (and if 2 do exist either 2 girls or 1...
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Should be getting the stuff out of my car today!!! That means you guys will get tons of Sunny photo updates soon. Get excited!!!
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I’ve been a wreck all weekend. DHS is just beating around the bush and they are taking there sweet ass time even when we have done nothing but cooperated with them and it’s killing me. I’m not happy at all and I miss my little girl…tomorrow couldn’t come any sooner…
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My uterus feels has felt like it is about to fall out for about a week now. I THINK it’s my uterus stretching and maybe is like pulling the fuck out of my inner c-section scar or something? I don’t know but it hurts only on my left side and hurts more when I’m moving around or going from like laying to sitting or rolling in bed. And it’s not in my abdominal area.
Has...
Oh also, I feel MUCH more comfortable with Sunny’s babysitter after meeting her. She is a nice old lady and seems to be doing really good with Sunny. We will most likely be getting Sunny back in the next month ISH because DHS can’t give me a fucking time line for anything but I’m guessing from what we are doing now that that will be around the time.
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So Tuesday DHS did NOT give us our other visitation and told us we could NOT go to the doctor visit and our case worker conveniently had a “family emergency” and did NOT show up for the icebreaker to meet the foster parent and the visitation supervisor conveniently “forgot” about the icebreaker meeting. Which is REAL fucking hilarious considering the judge told them to...
Dear DHS,
WE ARE SMARTER THAN YOU!!!
Anonymous asked: Have you guys considered settling down now that all of this has happened? Getting your own place and stable employment? I have to admit I was surprised when you picked up and drove cross-country with a young baby and another on the way when you had a nice place to stay.
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In other news, it is forever snowing. Spring time my ass.
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Court went great today! We go back NEXT Monday to set up the action plan (I have been in court EVERY Monday for the past 4 weeks now). We got our other visit back so now we have 3 2hour visits!!! And I am allowed to attend Sunny’s wellness check up on Wednesday so that means 1 extra time I get to see her, plus I should be there anyways since we know more about her health than...
Anonymous asked: Is your current housing and employment situation effecting your DHS case in any way?
March 2012
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Sunny was beyond cute today. 2 hours isn’t enough…
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Home, let me come home Home is wherever I’m with you. Home, let me come home Home is wherever I’m with you.
La, la, la, la, take me home. Mother I’m coming home…
Anonymous asked: I am writing from Vancouver, Canada. I found your blog through offbeat mama. My heart absolutely breaks to hear that your daughter has been taken away. I have 2 kids. Can't even imagine what you must be going through right now. It sickens me that the US govt attitude about substances is so fucked up. Hypocritical and fearful. I can tell that you are the most loving parents with only the best...
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I'm not a happy person...
Dear visitation worker,
I know that I saw my daughter from 8-10 today but I don’t see that as a reason to take away my other visitation today from 1-3. It’s not me you are taking the hours away from; I will learn to live with it. It’s the beautiful 9 month old little girl who physically NEEDS to see her parents that you are trying to rob hours from. Just so you know...
ohthelittles asked: I went to the Contemporary Jewish Museum and they had a tree stump with cracks in it and little pieces of paper for people to write prayers and stick them into the stump. I wrote a note that said "Sunny Rae comes back to stay with Kayla and Checkers" and stuck it in for you.
Anonymous asked: Sooo I think I stumbled upon your tumblr from offbeatmama? Well either way I've been so into reading about your awesomely interesting lives. So sorry you are dealing with legal issues right now. Its funny how your heart can break for someone you've never met. Where abouts in Oregon are you guys? I was born and raised in the Columbia river gorge.
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Oh and Checkers is 100 percent set like not budging at all on naming our child Indiana Jones no matter if little bean is a boy or a girl. Indy is a cute nickname but I don’t really LOVE LOVE the name, especially not the Jones part.
I’ve also never even seen the movies…
Anonymous asked: I'm so sorry about Sunny. You're an amazing Mom don't forget that. On a slightly different note are you going to find out the gender of the littlest bean? :) x
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Had court this morning and it went really well. We set up a prima facia hearing for next Monday at 8:30 which is basically them giving us an action plan of what we have to do next. We also have to go back at 2:30 today to get our no contact order dropped between me and Checkers so that way we can have visitations together and at least be a family for the time that we get to see her. Our judge...